What I didn’t eat Wednesday….

Also the blog of the books I haven’t been reading and the places I haven’t gone and the things I didn’t do.

A lot of bloggers participate in this roundup called What I Ate Wednesday, showcasing their meals for that day or (more typically) one of the previous two, as well as typically talking about their daily activities.

Well, I didn’t eat this:

c. last Thursday. Also pretty much half of my good nights.

Or this:

c. Thursday as well.

Or even this:

c. Saturday morning

I mentioned in Monday’s post that, despite initially thinking Saturday was a good day, I got sick Saturday evening and had been feeling poorly since then. Well…that hasn’t really stopped. This “episode” has just dragged on (and on and on and on.) Barring a four hour window on Tuesday when I managed to get some medicine to work, I haven’t been able to eat anything. For the last couple of days, despite not being hungry, I’ve been trying at my parents’ behest, but it just hasn’t worked.

I’ve had episodes this bad before, but leaving aside the ones in Oxford (when I was still in the initial stages of this illness and had a body more able to withstand this kind of thing), I’ve always ended up in the hospital from dehydration by this point. The good thing about my NJ tube is that it has prevented that from becoming a necessity again. (Avoiding the hospital = very good thing.) But it’s also kept me kind of floating along just before that stage. I’d put on a few much needed pounds in my first week and a half with the tube, but in the last few days, they all came off. I’ve been popping Zofran like candy and while it has provided some relief, it hasn’t substantially changed things. (Zofran is the anti-nausea medicine usually given to chemo patients, for what it’s worth.) I tried another medicine that I’d had a less than fabulous reaction to previously (out of desperation, really) to no avail.

Knowing that things couldn’t continue like this, we contacted my doctors yesterday. The resolution that came last night.

1. I have a new medication, which I think will work.

2. I’m supposed to wait on trying food until I feel really ready for it, instead of trying every couple of hours. My doctor agrees that it’s just counter productive at this point.

3. I’m going to have feedings during the day, as well as at night, until I can eat some. I’m not getting enough in by only having it at night (as proven by the weight loss), particularly since my overly sensitive gut will only accept a slow drip.

I’m not crazy about the idea of being hooked up to the pump 22 hours a day. It restricts my mobility considerably and I’m usually happy to be rid of it. I won’t be leaving the house for the time being. But it’s much better than tearing up my esophagus and stomach or wasting away or being confined to a hospital bed. Hopefully, it will only be for a day or two.

Hooked up, yo. (Sorry about the wet hair.)

Reading has been difficult in this condition. I’ve found it difficult to concentrate. I reread a couple of light novels, The Second Assistant and The First Assistant. I read a bit more of Exile’s Return, but I’m really saving that until I’m feeling a bit better. I read Flight of Betrayal (written by a family friend; copy received for free), which was a quick read. It’s not very much considering the number of hours I’ve spent in bed not really doing anything. I don’t want to read anything too heavy and I don’t want to read anything too “precious,” if that makes sense. I’m saving the other Isherwood novella, for example, because I want to be able to savor it, to revel in it, and to really appreciate it. I’m not up for that right now.

Any suggestions for easy reads?

What do you like to do when you’re sick?





12 thoughts on “What I didn’t eat Wednesday….

  1. Jordan, I am really sorry to hear that your episode doesn’t seem to subside. I really hope that the doctor’s changes in medication and feeding schedule will help you recover soon and fast. That said, your meals look delicious. Is the first photo rice with pan-fried fish? *squints*

    When I’m too tired to read or in the middle of other less interesting tasks, I tend to put on an audiobook. Audible has been a good supplier of audiobooks. My preference is for adventure books, relatively “light” reading like Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell, the Harry Potter series, the Lindsay David Roman crime/mystery series, stuff like that.

    What about TV? Are there any series you haven’t watched yet, but are still wanting to catch up with? Now’s the time 🙂

    Hope you feel better soon. Good food is waiting for you!

    • Thank you! The first photo is brown rice cous cous with grilled chicken and grilled zucchini. 🙂

      Audiobooks are a good suggestion. I’ve listened to the entire Harry Potter series, read by Stephen Fry, a couple times through since first getting sick (I do adore the Oxfordshire library system for allowing me to continually check them out….) I need to figure out something else.

      TV is hard because I’m SUPER picky. I’ll get really into a show when I’m into it, but I need to get into one in the first place. Good idea, though!

      Thanks for all your support. 🙂

  2. Dearest Jordan, some of my favorite reads are the novels by Jane Austen and Thackeray’s Vanity Fair. My third standby is Sherlock Holmes. I can read and reread these works, and having read them so many times keeps me from losing the thread even when I can’t concentrate well. I hope some of these ideas work for you. Lots of love, Aunt Sharon.

    For a different perspective, I suggest a different time and place: McMurtry’s Lonesome Dove. While Austen and Thackeray and Holmes take Aunt Sharon to England’s past, Lonesome Dove takes me to America’s West–unique characters and story lines.

    Finally, have you read The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks? It’s way cool–amazing story, fascinating people, really well told. We hope you feel better soon. Love, Uncle Steve.

    • Thank you for the suggestions, Aunt Sharon and Uncle Steve! Rereading books is a wonderful idea, and I’ve been meaning to revisit Pride and Prejudice for a while. I haven’t read either Lonesome Dove or The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks. I’ll have to check those out. Love you guys!

  3. Last time I was really really sick, I read Terry Pratchett. 🙂 Diana Wynne Jones is my very favorite though, and I pick her up a lot when I feel icky. I seem to recall that watching MacGyver on Netflix was also happening last time–I think that must have been my older daughter’s idea, but it was a good choice for me too.

    I’m sorry this episode isn’t letting up. As long as you have to be stuck inside, at least you’re only missing out on horrible smoke. Sending good vibes your way!

    For that first picture, my guess is rice, chicken, and grilled eggplant or possibly zucchini. Who is right, me or Chinoiseries? Or neither?

    • I’ve never actually read Terry Pratchett! It might be a good time to check him out. It’s been ages since I’ve read Diana Wynne Jones, but I remember being enamored with a couple of her books years ago.

      Thanks so much for the good vibes. Yes, missing the smoke is definitely an upside to staying indoors. It also helps that I have an hour or two in the evenings between day and night feedings when I gain a bit more mobility.

      The picture shows brown rice cous cous with grilled chicken and grilled zucchini. (I didn’t realize it would turn into a guessing game, but this is fun!)

  4. I’m so sorry to hear about your illness! As hard as it may seem, try to stay positive because the mind has secret healing powers when used correctly, right? Things will get better….they always do.

    As for reads, I’m not sure I can make any light-reading suggestions. I’m currently in the middle of Anna Karenina (not exactly light reading). You need a book that will wrap you up so tightly that you won’t be aware of anything around you 🙂 Harry Potter always did that for me. Another suggestion is to maybe get addicted to a new TV series? I don’t usually encourage people to choose television over books, but sometimes a few hours of mindless tv-watching do wonders.

    • Thank you! I’m definitely focusing on keeping my thoughts positive and my spirits up — and succeeding the vast, vast majority of the time.

      Anna Karenina is one of my absolute favorites! I became glued to it at thirteen and read it in less than a week, while school was in session. Yep, I’ve been using HP in that fashion for the last few months. Any suggestions on TV series?

  5. Hey, Jordan! I’m sorry to hear things have taken a turn for the worse. When I’m in need of some light reading, I usually turn to childhood standbys, like L.M. Montgomery’s Anne of Green Gables (the fact that it is a series is also a plus), Louisa May Alcott’s Little Women, and Laura Ingalls Wilder’s Little House books. Of course, adding more historical fiction into the mix is always a joy; sometimes I can get bogged down with heavy pieces of historiography–you know how THAT is! 😉

    • Thank you Ani! Fortunately, they’re settling down a bit now — it’s just a matter of letting my stomach recover. (My goal is to be able to eat semi-normally on my birthday, which is Tuesday.) Oh my gosh, reading childhood standbys is a great idea! For years and years, whenever I was sick I would reread The Wizard of Oz. I think I’ll maybe do that again. It has the advantage of providing a series as well. Oh, and Alice in Wonderland and maybe Little House and…I’m getting excited just thinking of ideas!

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